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long letter

do you like long letters? i was about to write one to you last night at 3 am. a birthday month letter or may be a birthday letter. as you can read now, i did not suceed and i am trying again. trying again to write, to bolster away the frozen layers from heart and […]

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letter from me

in my dream, in wrote you a letter. i am awake now, the tv and radio both are playing around me, my father is the first to get up in our house and then i get up too. the weather has been humid, over the last couple of week. my eyes are still a little […]

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i surrender

i have been trying to breathe but it seems like there is no more fresh air to breathe, my lungs gasp. seeking for a fresh breath, fighting anxiety.yes, you are right-there is no need to fight and yet, i fight. i fight and fight and fight. it’s tiring to be this way to be honest, […]

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fighting instant gratification

i am not sure about the timeline, as in when this started but off late – for many many many years. this has been going on. these cycles of instant gratification. the cycle of constantly chasing something, constantly trying to be somewhere and fighting with your inner self. the cycles of instant gratifaction make me […]

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on ayurveda & experiments

ever since i was a kid, i was drawn towards mysticism, towards ideas of consciousness, nirvana, spirituality and of historical wisdom which my ancestors have to offer. i have seen my dada ji (grandfather – i call him badepapa) using neem stick for brushing his teeth, drinking loki (bottlegourd) & karela (bittergourd) juice and honestly […]

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21 days lockdown | how to survive

i was working on our e-store – amrutam.co.in – working on some teeny-tiny theme updates while my family watched the indian prime minister narendra modi – giving his second speech in recent days about the corona virus pandemic. i would say he is a very proactive prime minister, seeing him trying to interact with the […]

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5th march 2020

i am having a bad day today, okay, let’s say very bad day. something happened at work today and something upsets me. something is always my attachment. past two weeks have been happy, not content. but happy. happy is good. happy is overwhelming. it was my bestest friend’s birthday recently. i say bestest because it […]

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thappad – movie review

bollywood movie review thappad

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i dont think i am doing well, i feel how i’ve felt most of my life. i feel lost and hollow, and that’s the truth. does my sadness upsets you? actually it would be wrong to say that i am sad. i am hollow, swimming on the brim of a tin can, trying to breathe. […]

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of madness & jungle

it’s a fucked up life. that’s the first line which comes to my head while i surf through the daily life pressures and dreams. well, i must not forget the dreams. dreams are the stuff thar keeps us alive, keeps us going with the hope that one day. one fucking day, its all gonna be […]