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i surrender

i have been trying to breathe but it seems like there is no more fresh air to breathe, my lungs gasp. seeking for a fresh breath, fighting anxiety.yes, you are right-there is no need to fight and yet, i fight. i fight and fight and fight. it’s tiring to be this way to be honest, […]

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fighting instant gratification

i am not sure about the timeline, as in when this started but off late – for many many many years. this has been going on. these cycles of instant gratification. the cycle of constantly chasing something, constantly trying to be somewhere and fighting with your inner self. the cycles of instant gratifaction make me […]

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on ayurveda & experiments

ever since i was a kid, i was drawn towards mysticism, towards ideas of consciousness, nirvana, spirituality and of historical wisdom which my ancestors have to offer. i have seen my dada ji (grandfather – i call him badepapa) using neem stick for brushing his teeth, drinking loki (bottlegourd) & karela (bittergourd) juice and honestly […]

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21 days lockdown | how to survive

i was working on our e-store – amrutam.co.in – working on some teeny-tiny theme updates while my family watched the indian prime minister narendra modi – giving his second speech in recent days about the corona virus pandemic. i would say he is a very proactive prime minister, seeing him trying to interact with the […]

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5th march 2020

i am having a bad day today, okay, let’s say very bad day. something happened at work today and something upsets me. something is always my attachment. past two weeks have been happy, not content. but happy. happy is good. happy is overwhelming. it was my bestest friend’s birthday recently. i say bestest because it […]

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thappad – movie review

bollywood movie review thappad

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i dont think i am doing well, i feel how i’ve felt most of my life. i feel lost and hollow, and that’s the truth. does my sadness upsets you? actually it would be wrong to say that i am sad. i am hollow, swimming on the brim of a tin can, trying to breathe. […]

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of madness & jungle

it’s a fucked up life. that’s the first line which comes to my head while i surf through the daily life pressures and dreams. well, i must not forget the dreams. dreams are the stuff thar keeps us alive, keeps us going with the hope that one day. one fucking day, its all gonna be […]

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don’t be afraid, dear heart!

back when i was in college, i kept working on short-term goals – to keep engaging myself in the things i enjoyed – from poetry to film workshops. i pursued economics as majors but my heart always kept swaying towards the subjective disciplines like literature, psychology and sociology.

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15th July 2019

i feel abruptly empty at this hour in the night. its twelve am in the night and i feel tired, i want to sleep and not wake up to deal with another day of life. everything seems so difficult, even just to breathe. i feel tired of living. i feel afraid to share this with […]