i have been feeling afraid, living with an irrational fear since the last three-four days. its interesting for me to observe how this irrational fear of mine, so often convinces my mind and heart that it is not irrational at all.
reminiscence of love, lingers around my bed, on a thursday morning,
i was reading my textbook on cognitive psychology, well yes, i did finally start reading. i have been avoiding it for months now, not textbook but just reading.
before i close my eyes, and try to put myself to sleep, i rub my hands through my chest and through my feet,
all i want is all i need is to find somebody –kodaline
i started experiencing a strange kind of pain in my left ankle, near the malleoli-the protruding circular which makes our ankle joint. it started, the pain, sometime in december 2017, i can recollect now, as i think about it.
i had thought i would be asleep by now, i’m not. last two nights, i could get sleep easily. tonight is different.
i have not written anything in a long while, i could not. it happened after i left the city i have been living in for four years, this feeling happened when i left that city which taught me how to live independently. i call this feeling “a pause” because that’s what it feels to me.