its has been long that i have written anything here. i know on most of the days i have started writing by saying that it has been long. it has been. it is always long enough. with the number of days, that i don’t write- there are parts within which dry away like autumn leaves […]

i have been feeling afraid, living with an irrational fear since the last three-four days. its interesting for me to observe how this irrational fear of mine, so often convinces my mind and heart that it is not irrational at all.

i was reading my textbook on cognitive psychology, well yes, i did finally start reading. i have been avoiding it for months now, not textbook but just reading.

all i want is all i need is to find somebody –kodaline

i started experiencing a strange kind of pain in my left ankle, near the malleoli-the protruding circular which makes our ankle joint. it started, the pain, sometime in december 2017, i can recollect now, as i think about it.

i had thought i would be asleep by now, i’m not. last two nights, i could get sleep easily. tonight is different.

i have not written anything in a long while, i could not. it happened after i left the city i have been living in for four years, this feeling happened when i left that city which taught me how to live independently. i call this feeling “a pause” because that’s what it feels to me.